Bittersweet Dream

It shouldn't be like this
Everything was perfect right from the beginning
The seedling's blooming
sending showers of hope right into my heart
I was so confident
that everything will be alright
I was so sure
that I had done the right thing
and yet
why have I fallen into the same darkness
over and over again?

The music of happiness belonged to me once
but now it is only an echo in my ears
Its music box a memory from the hidden past
Oh how I hoped that I had grabbed it at that time
but now
regret is everything that's left

I shouldn't linger in the haunting past
but I just couldn't resist it
the tempting sweetness I once tasted
Was it only a bittersweet dream
that I'm not worthy of?

Every time, everyday I try to wipe it out
and each time it appears right in front of me
how should I ever hold back
such feelings of pain
Can someone tell me
What did I do wrong?

It's shouting at me
that painful past
I can't forget
It's making me crazy
the lyrics never been this clear and harsh
How should I make it go away?

My heart's suffering, that's all I can tell