Blue Shirt

As I sat by the window
my eyes glanced out
the view was nothing new
but I was glued to the scenery
The puffy clouds floated by
as the blue shirt danced to their rhythm
I suddenly remembered
a song from a distant source
as the sound of guitar
entered my zone
As I scribbled down every word each second
my heart kept wondering
about the little things in life
The blue shirt stopped dancing
and the clouds no longer shifted
The moment I stared up
a shade of darkness patched the pale pale sky
My fingers paced on the musky paper
whereas the guitar kept the atmosphere tingling
The blue shirt floated unsurprisingly
as a slow gust of chillness blew by
I noticed the shadows lurking behind me eerily
only to realize that the evening wind was stronger now
I always wanted to know
how reality looks like without my glasses on
only when curiosity is alive
Though uncertainty was the only thing I saw
there was always a tiny voice in me
that spoke truly
and without fear
'It's gonna be alright'
That was all I need to hear
I raised my head
my eyes searching
and found that
the blue shirt
was still.

这一年里的一切

我从来都没想过，我竟然会如此留恋。

但是今天的结束，让我清醒，也让我明白，其实我比任何人都不舍。我曾经以为我只不过是个过客，不会对任何人或事物而感到什么，更不用说怀念。以前，我一直固执地以为你们只不过是学业方面胜过其他人，而且怀有骄傲的心态看待其他人。

我，错了。

没想到，咳，也许是你们感动了我吧。在那一刻，我终于明白这几天心里的不安了。在回家的路途中，望着风景，不仅回想起这一年里的点点滴滴，心里有种说不出的感觉。有点自责，为何没好好珍惜时间，让它慢慢的，悄悄的流失。现在，我只能往前走，带着与你们的回忆，向未知的未来迈开旅程。

即使你们不知道，我都会默默的，祝福着每一个你们。

把所有的遗憾和后悔在这一年里放下，等待新的一年，然后在未来的日子里闪闪发光！

Starting Point

Something in me realized that, even the closest bonds you have with your best friends change. I never knew that, and it shocked me to the core at that time. No matter how hard you’ve tried to bring all those sweet memories back, it never does return the same way. It only shows how far both of you have become.
All that’s left is the past flashbacks of the times with your best friend.


The sky was purple black and the first breeze of morning air slapped me into reality. Am I ready for a start over? Hell I am!
The first day always made me extra sensitive and jumpy. You never know what will happen, is what I always thought. And today was no exception. Lucky for me, a friend I know was there to accompany me. A prefect led way and we scurried after her towards my new learning room. The first sight I got when I stepped into my classroom was a noisy, excited and yet fresh bunch of school mates, the friends I’m gonna make.
You’ve guess that right, my first day of school-in an environment I’m a total stranger to. My old school was involved in an all school-teacher-student -move out- to –another- territory plan due to several reasons. I was following until my elders gave their no’s in every way possible. I was forced to leave everything behind- my childhood friends, familiar faces, learning environment and my post as a prefect. The beginning of my high school life was picture perfect, up until now, that is. The thought of transferring never crossed my mind, and I thought that it never will, until this whole matter popped out of nowhere. I guess this is God’s will?
After I’ve regained my senses back, a problem made its way and buzzed into my ear. The seats are ALL packed – except for the one at the front beside the door. I guess this is all then? Surprisingly, the seat seemed to yearn for me, as if it was shouting ‘Sit me! Sit me!’. Well what choice do I have left? But I didn’t know that my slick fast decision making at that time earned me a valuable treasure throughout that whole year.

Bittersweet Dream

It shouldn't be like this
Everything was perfect right from the beginning
The seedling's blooming
sending showers of hope right into my heart
I was so confident
that everything will be alright
I was so sure
that I had done the right thing
and yet
why have I fallen into the same darkness
over and over again?

The music of happiness belonged to me once
but now it is only an echo in my ears
Its music box a memory from the hidden past
Oh how I hoped that I had grabbed it at that time
but now
regret is everything that's left

I shouldn't linger in the haunting past
but I just couldn't resist it
the tempting sweetness I once tasted
Was it only a bittersweet dream
that I'm not worthy of?

Every time, everyday I try to wipe it out
and each time it appears right in front of me
how should I ever hold back
such feelings of pain
Can someone tell me
What did I do wrong?

It's shouting at me
that painful past
I can't forget
It's making me crazy
the lyrics never been this clear and harsh
How should I make it go away?

My heart's suffering, that's all I can tell

Monday Pox

Nothing special today.
Alicia was infected with chicken pox, which she had suffered before, according to her. Seeing that, I tried to avoid contact with her, as it was contagious. Yet she tried to pass the germs to me!! Cause I haven't suffer from CP yet!!! Argghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was kind of moody today, perhaps it was because Alicia had to leave early. Boring indeed~
Well, at least there weren't any homework.

Rain

I thought that I was going to get wet today. Well, I was completely wrong.
It really poured heavily, while lessons were being taught in school. The rain was brought by the heavy gloomy clouds since morning. While I gazed deeply from where I was sitting to the scenery outside the window, I only saw rain.

The smell of soil and water was truly something different. Just like smelling the scent of fresh grass after a day's rain.

What is rain, to be exact? They often say that it is the tears of sadness poured by God. But is it really...?

When I was small, I never thought I would come to like the presence of rain. I always thought of it as the co-existence of sorrow. Come to think of it, I never really hated rain.

I like hearing how the raindrops splatter to the ground. It feels like...how do you put it....something out of this world.

The place where I live couldn't see stars clearly. Instead, rain was very common. I like the night sky accompanied by a slightly drizzling rain. And some soothing cool wind. It feels sooo calm. Rather than liking stars, I like rain more. It accompanies me and gives me coolness when I need it. I'd say it was more precious than the dazzling shimmering stars at night.

Splot...splot...splot....

Please accept my apology!!

I'm such a TERRIBLE person!!!!!! I know I know I forgot about it, I'm sooo sorry!!!

I know that none of my actions could compensate for forgetting it, I'm sorry!!! I knew that there was something wrong when I talked to you the other day, I just couldn't sense what was it!! I'm such a fool and forgetful person.....

Please forgive me, B.

Waiting by a 7-branch tree

The grumbling noises
echoed from ear to ear
I stood
by the side of a friend
staring aimlessly at the never-endingness beyond
The round thing kept rolling
repeating the endless cycle

How I hope
those bright yellow lights
were meant for me
A lighted hope
was flamed alive
and once again
blown dead

A flicker of hope
seeped into her eyes
as she stepped forward
and embraced you
while I stood motionless
with envy

She glanced over at me
and waved me goodbye
I could see a speck of something
that was called
warmness
in her eyes

How I hope
that
that stretched look
was meant for me
It doesn't matter
if you're old
or ugly
just meant for me

Deep in the holes of my heart
there lingered doubt
but it couldn't stop me
from continuing my belief
that you would come
just, for me

Even when you have everything, you’re empty

Even though you have nothing, you’re having fun.

Even when you suffer, you’re happy.

Our worlds always revolve around our feelings.



Kanojo wa Uso wo Aishisugiteru manga

26 and 27-What Day?

Flag Day, of course!!! Well, It 's my fourth year participating in this important activity for St John. Truth be told, I was very excited the day before. And it proved to be like as I expected!!!

~First Day~
Well, I was assigned to Team E, which consists of 8 to 10 members(including a team leader and assistant leader). Our first stop was somewhere in Farlim. Well, it was just 7 something and the air was still cold.And there weren't a lot people there at that time. We kinda split into pairs of two. My partner was two years younger than me, so I kinda acted as the head(hahahaha) , deciding where to go, etc. To collect more donation, we left our first spot and traveled down and away from the place. Well, our efforts weren't in vain, but it wasn't fruitful either. EITHER WAY........the problem was, the two of us kinda lost our way when we wanted to go back. (Both of us couldn't identify directions....). Finally our last resort were to call our leader(well, it wasn't our last resort....) and relying on our instincts, managed to 'crawl' back to our meeting point.(hahahahahahahaha)

Next at 12, we had lunch there before taking the bus to town. Yay~
Noon proved to be less tiring and more comfortable...? Anyway, we agreed to scatter again and soon we were on our own way. My partner and I went to the old shops and kopitiams nearby across the road in hope of increasing our collections. It wasn't too disappointing though. Well, if you discount the hot sun, the negative response of 'some' people, our experience of nearly chased by a mad dog.....and more.....it wasn't soo bad....(or so I said.) ANYWAY....at least our spirits were still blazing. Later we got back to the meeting place. Feeling tired, we decided to rest there for awhile and collect donations. I met some of my old buddies from PTHS . So happy!!! They were still someone I knew, luckily. We talked and I got to know things and happenings. We promised to meet up again and get the chance to have a looooong chat. Well, we can save that for next time!

At 5, we regroup[ed and headed to our final rendezvous place before heading back to headquarters. I was totally worn out, and slept at 8.

~Second Day~

The second day proved to be the same, only that I could see stifled yawns and watery eyes(from everyone there) as I went to report to the leader. First stop-Air Itam!
Well, I could only say the market is packed!!! And flooded with other St Johns too!!Our rivals from other schools were there too!!!!Gyah~~~~~~~~~ We ate breakfast there and collected some donations before taking the bus ride to somewhere near my current school UHS. There we split into groups of four and traveled separately. Well, due to some reasons, and I don't know why, I became the leader AGAIN.The rest of my teammates were either one, two or three years my junior. And so once again I 'courageously' took up the responsibility of taking care of my juniors. Along the way, I acted and gradually became their 'mother' (or babysitter). One of my juniors even xalled me big sister or mum, Am i that old?!!!

Later we reached Times Square. Our meeting place. But the other four haven't arrived yet. So we took the opportunity to rest and sight-see. There was a food carnival at the moment and a kompang competition. It was my first time watching this type of show, and I was amazed and thrilled!! It was a great experience, despite the short time. Later they arrived and we kinda rest for a long while............

At noon, we heade for KFC for lunch. The pain in my head grew gradually and finally exploded after luch, It was too excruciating, the pain I mean. Later we split again. Finally I couldn't take it anymore. I called my leader and told her I had to go home. After assigning everything to my partner apologetically, I rang up my father and went home. Sigh....It could have been better......

Well, I REALLY hOPE we win this year!! We have put in our best effort!!

Awakened

Hi there! It's been a long time since I blogged. Apparently I was beginning to give up on writing, feeling that writing wasn't the thing for me. But later, as if fate(or God) had turned its wheel of magic, I realized my passion for writing. It hit me, that writing will always be my passion. Just like the title, my passion had been awakened.

Anyway, the main thing is I've started reading P.C.Cast and Kristin Cast's book, Burned. Although only halfway through, it was really interesting(I realize interesting isn't the suitable word) and the plot continues attracting my attention, as if it doesn't want the readers to even pause(quite true,actually!)

Even without finishing the book, I was already anxious and thrilled for the birth of Awakened, their 8th book. I've checked online and discovered that the next book would be released next year, or to be more precise, 4th January 2011. Yay!!!

Plus, a film adaptation based on the first book of the series, Marked is being planned and will be released also in 2011!! Three cheers!!!

Well, I'm off to continue my book now! Bye!!!

Anniversary

Yesterday(Saturday) was my parents anniversary. Well, to be precise, it's their wedding registration anniversary. Still it was an occasion to celebrate,right?

A noon, we were all dressed for lunch. My brother was kind of excited as it's been a long time since we all went out for lunch together. As expected we arrived at a restaurant. As we entered the place, darkness immediately swallowed us. The inner part of the restaurant were dimly lit by candles, resting peacefully on each dining table. After we placed our order, I observed the surroundings. It wasn't my first time here, but nevertheless, this place never stops to awe me. The walls were decorated with magnificent paintings themed as underwater that stretched throughout the wall. Besides the candles there were a few dim lights hanging from the ceiling. These lights were actually 'furballs' which were big and cute in its own way. There was a medium sized pond with fishes behind the dining area, which intrigued my brother into watching it.

After several minutes of waiting, our food arrived. I had corn soup while my father had oxtail( I think it's spelled like this)soup, which was the restaurants's specialty. Later, our main course came as well. My mum had chicken with steamed rice while my brother enjoyed Fish n' Chips. I tried fish fillet with almond while my father had steak. It was simply scrumptious! Everything felt in order and the atmosphere was in tune too.

Finally, it was time for dessert. I chose Safari ice-cream over coffee, while my brother ate the same too. Both my parents enjoyed coffee. After several minutes of chatting and enjoying out time, we paid our bills and left the place. I'd say it was very splendid!

Holidays!!!! Anime!!!

The holidays are FINALLY here!!! And those ghastly exams are TOTALLY and FINALLY OVER!!!!

There's a whole bunch of things I've want to say. And I'm awfully sorry for not renewing my blog since the last post. But do not fear, I'm here for the rest of the week.(I hope...)

First thing, good anime to introduce to you guys. I'm not sure whether you've heard of these, but they're the 2010's first new bunch of animes. And if you haven't heard of these names, you in luck!
1.Dance in the Vampire Bund- the plot surrounds a vampire queen and a boy(whose true identity is....?). Action packed, intriguing and a bit of a horror. A great anime.
2.Seikon no Qwaser- Revolves around two teen girls and a mysterious boy named Sasha(super cool!!).Ermm, a lot of fighting, comedy, a little harem, but overall, good. My personal favourite!!!
3.Durarara!- Still a mystery to me, as I have just watched two episodes. But but but, it kinda reminds me of Eden of the East though, the genre is quite the same(even the mysterious feeling is lurking around) but I wouldn't know about you guys.
4.Sora no Woto-The character similarity with K-On is almost 99% same!! I mean, even the plot is about the same too! But the difference is the background and what happens next. I couldn't say much about this, but you should really check this one out!

I guess, that's all for now! I'm starting to feel that I'm an anime freak!(and otaku too...)

Hanasakeru Seishounen Ending song- One by J-Min

One~
Kanashii hodo tooku ni kanjiru
Kimi no kokoro sagashi hajimeteru
Itsumo soba ni ite mamorarete ita kara
Nee, hitori ja kowain da

Nagareru jikan nante
Minna onaji na no ni
Ima nemutteru Naite iru
Egao de ite hoshii

Afuredasu omoi o daite ai ni yuku kara
Sorasanaide Chanto mite Kimi o shinjiteru
Sou dare mo shiranai futari dake no omoi de wa
Tsuyokute utsukushii toki No aoi umi
Sono ude sono mune ni Watashi wa ikite iru

Ashita de aeru hito soshite wakareru hito
Kurikaesarete aruite iru
Douka kimi o totte eien made tsunagu
Tatta hitotsu no ai ni shite yo

Afuredasu omoi o daite ai ni yuku kara
Ima sugu kono ai o tsutae ni yuku kara
Mou nani mo iranai Kimi no kokoro igai wa
Futari de irareru nara Kowaku nanka nai
Kondo wa soba ni ite Kimi o mamoru kara
* *
I feel the sad distance
For the first time, I am searching for your heart
Protecting the time when we were always together
Hey, I'm scared of being alone

Time flows
The same for everyone
Now I'm sleeping and crying
I want to see your smile

I will hold on to the overflowing feelings of love
Don't divert your eyes, Look at me properly I believe in you
Yes, no one knows the pair's feelings
A strong, beautiful time The blue ocean
Those arms, that chest I am living

Tomorrow people will meet and break up
It will repeat as they walk
I want to somehow connect with you and take eternity
I have only one love

I will hold on to the overflowing feelings of love
As soon as possible, I want to report this love
Now, I need nothing Your heart advances
It's possible if it's the two of us I'm not afraid
This time together I will protect you

The First Post

Whoa....Suddenly I realised that it had been a long time since i blogged. A bit scary, now that I think it back.....

Anyway, the new life in school is REALLY hectic. I've never known that life in Form 4 is soo busy! The evidence is I haven't blogged for a long long time! Everything seemed so different now. The change in school work is totally obvious and just look at the syllabus! Crazy!

I'm facing a dilemma now. In Form 5, we're gonna have to choose and plan carefully which college to enter and which career path, but I haven't got a clue!! Two of my friends have already decided to focus on A-level exams(some kind of Singapore exam, I think). One of them have decided to either go to Japan or England to pursue her studies after SPM. How great is that! Plus, MY ambition column is now officially blank. I'm 'out of ambition' now and I have no idea what I really want. Such a mess-up.
But the 1 positive thing is, at least I know what my interests are, that is photography, reading,and watching anime. Haha...

Well, gotta stop here for now, I have a debate to catch up....